Monday, August 31, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Directions for use:
It’s funny the things you can still learn about yourself when you think you’ve got the whole ‘you’ thing figured out.
For example…
I really love settling in for a night of reality TV. I get teary eyed when a fireman is acknowledged for a heroic act. I hate the smell of calcium citrate and sometimes I’m frightened by religious people. This last one is due to the rash of town hall meetings where the religious right were seen screaming things about one nation under god – bla, bla, bla I’m going to blow your head off if the government tries to mess with my Medicare yada, yada, yada.
While I’m not necessarily proud of all of these things, they are new discoveries to me.
These items were not listed in the original supplement facts of Laura and need to be added to the ingredient list. I don’t think I’m unique or unusual in this way; in fact I’m fairly certain that when we pay attention the daily observations about ourselves and each other can be startling, fresh and sometimes blow-your-hair-back cool.
So, don’t print the label just yet. We should never assume we have everything all figured out. It’s never that tidy.
Without getting too personal or revealing too much I’ll just say there is a new ingredient that can be added to the list. It’s the kind of thing that if my life was a movie (and I often think it is) when this particular thing is mentioned you might hear the sound of a needle being pulled across a record and then shocked silence. That’s a least what is going on inside my head.
I’ll use an example from the old days. I use to have to hear about a woman named Brenda. The details aren’t important now, but as time went by, whenever Brenda was mentioned the sound I heard inside my head was Brend-Duh. Everything else ceased. If you listened close you could probably hear the gears grinding to a stop inside my head. I’m no Fossil Abacus Smart Watch with a rechargeable battery. Think Tin man whose lifeline demands you grab for the oil can. Time stopped. Crickets chirped. All the witty repartee I’m normally so proud of vanished into thin air; unable to think of the next thing to say or hide emotion on my face. Soon Brend-Duh was always present – whether spoken or unspoken. It didn’t take me long to realize she probably always would be. She was the third wheel.
Or was I?
I have many talents in life. I can sing on key. I’m a people person who makes friends easily. I volunteer my time. I know how to do shots of tequila. What I’m not so good at? I suck at picking up on the obvious. You might say I’m a little slow on the uptake. How do I add this brain ceasing, mood altering ingredient to the supplement facts of Laura? Maybe it could be listed as a warning. Something in code about Pavlov’s dog. The involuntary reflex action that happens on my face when a certain word is mentioned, coupled with the sudden loss of brain activity. This is a frightening condition. The problem is the triggers are not always well known – even to me. However even when they are identified and discussed it’s often the case that the word is still said again and again – you know – the elephant in the room thing…and pretty soon I’m acting all irrationally, drooling a little and being treated like a delicate brain injury victim. Be afraid, back away, she’s overly emotional and sensitive and we have no clue why. Sure, that’s what you’re thinking.
My guess is the Pavlov dog hitch in my otherwise balanced contents list could be managed once the trigger is identified. In this particular case I’m well familiar with the trigger; the word that makes my brain activity flat line. Maybe if I keep Dove dark chocolate at the ready to be used as a positive condition to the negative trigger I can maintain my sanity and brain activity?! The problem is that of the Tin Man – someone had to work the oil can for him – he couldn’t do it himself. He was stuck. Hopefully I can eventually figure this thing out. Make sense?
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Tiny little things (click to enlarge)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
and his name is Arnold
Saturday, August 15, 2009
what day is it?
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Night
Thursday, July 30, 2009
yep, Thursdays! They're big for me.
I like Thursdays. They are a little like the first signs of Spring...hopeful, full of possibilities and new things to come. Not quite the weekend, but so close you can dream about it.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
and the damn chirping made me miss it.
The real problem is that between the hours of about 2am and 4am I no longer sleep (is that an old age thing?). By 4:45am, I was soundly sleeping again and having an interesting dream. The dream interrupted may have been inspired by a movie I saw Sunday night "The Ugly Truth" starring Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler. I fell madly in love with Butler in "P.S. I love you", but sadly his latest movie left much to be desired. Most of the time the jokes fell into the category of 10 year old boy humor - more of a nervous and embarrassed chuckle then wild, bold laughter.
Anyway, the dream my little yellow friend interrupted found me sharing a drink in a bar (a blind date I think) with a diminutive gentleman with flaming red hair and an Amish inspired beard. The conversation I was having with the leprechaun was likely inspired by one I had recently in a bar with an older gentleman who lives in a vet home. When this man told me he was from Hinckley MN I couldn't help but regal him with my memory of a book I read about the great Hinckley fire "Under the Flaming Sky". To complicate matters and further my annoyance at having this dream interrupted, the little man at the bar (the one in my dream) was morphing into Little Jimmy Dickens and I was about to ask him about his latest hit (released in 1962) and what his secret is to staying so fit and active at 88 (I just saw Little Jimmy on stage at the Grand Ole Opry while in Nashville and he left quite an impression).
I'm certain the little shock top in white cowboy boots was about to reveal something profound...
Friday, July 24, 2009
Garage Sale in Zumbrota







Thursday, July 23, 2009
Discovery Garden at Colvill Park







Habitat for Humanity - July 2009

Kay and I are learning the tricks of the capentry trade.











